native son-part 2

In the beginning of the novel, Bigger has no pride and his self worth is measured by how whites view him. Bigger expresses his feelings by saying "..me being black and they being white,...I feel like something awful's going to happen to me."(20) Gus tells him to brush it off and just accept it because there is nothing they can do about it. Bigger does not know how to deal with this fustration. Bigger "sells out" by taking the job the Daltons offer him because it was a way for him to earn money and have better living conditions. His condition did not give him a choice but to take the job so he can earn money to gain a better life. After he murdered Mary, his attitude and life changed. Bigger used the black "societal role" to his advantage.
“Jan was blind. Mary had been blind. Mr. Dalton was blind. And Mrs. Dalton was blind; yes in more way than one… he was black and would not have figured in her thoughts on such an occasion. Bigger felt that a lot of people were like Mrs. Dalton, blind…” (107)Blacks were invisible and inferior to whites. Bigger had no remorse for mudering Mary. He used her murder to his advantage. "It was a kind of eagerness he felt, a confidence, a fulness, a freedom; his whole life was caught up in a supreme and meaningful act,"(116) now he gained confidence and he felt like he had control of his life now.
Bigger had no remorse for Mary's death. In fact, he actually tries to use the murder to his own selfish advantages. Now he feels impowered and he has gained confidence which he lacked. "Next time things would be much different;he would plan and arrange so that he would have money enought to keep him a long time," this can be an indication that Bigger might murder again. He has the confidence that he can get away with it because he uses the fact that he is black and white people would not suspect him. I think this is a dangerous way for Bigger to gain confidence and control of his life.